when i was younger i used to have a baby husky named bella

i spent so much time with her, i pretty much did everything with her . wherever i went she followed

something so interesting to me is that when you're younger, everything seems so much more..... bright???? for lack of a better term i guess

when she ran away 6 years ago something felt really sttrange inside me like

i just didn't feel sad or hurt or anything i just felt kind of empty . i felt like i somehow lost a part of myself

since then things have just been depressing, like I obviously have good days and stuff and fun times with friends it's just that things feel less colorful and i'm not sure if that's because i'm getting older or like....... idk

i have a lot of trouble socializing with people in college and a lot of the time i just sit alone and kinda keep to myself which is something i feel like i should work on cuz having friends is something that's appealing to me and i feel like it could fix a lot of issues with myself but the actual act of talking to people face to face is so nerve-racking

starting this off with the walking dead